Contemplating Fear

Within a small circle of spiritual friends we had a discussion on the theme of suffering in the world. "I donate money to different organizations to help hunger and homeless children in Third World countries," one of my friends said. "What else can be done to help reduce suffering in the world?"

There was silence for a while, so I felt comfortable to express my point of view: "Donating money to different organizations is just an external action, and it will not solve the problem. Consciously or subconsciously, we close our eyes to the fact that all our problems start from within" I paused, and while observing full attention of the group, continued:

"Look where the biggest amount of American money goes - to the military, to the defense program. Why does it happen? Because of our own fear. Instead of embracing the vibration of love, we as a society choose to open ourselves to the vibration of fear. We carry our fear everywhere; we are fearful of everything. And what happens next? We want protection, more protection, and when protection comes in the form of a system which creates rules and regulations, we realize that now we are controlled by those who promised to protect us! Now they make decisions for us how to spend our money and how to live our lives. They attack those who look suspicious and they spend our money on weapons instead of food for the hungry or education.

"We ourselves are responsible for what we create. That's why by taking actions only outside of ourselves, we close our eyes on the main problem - our own issues, our own fear. So, in a manner to help the world, we have to start our work within ourselves first. We have to wake up into expanded awareness and to take responsibilities for our issues of fear, anger and hatredÂ… Only then can we say that we are truly addressing the world's issues."

"So, how do you work with your fears?" the friend asked me, and I responded: "I have a regular spiritual practice, which is Qi-Gong. It helps me on a personal level to obtain clarity, strength and positive energy. In the space of my meditation I experience peace and love, and I carry this energy into my life. I make my decisions out of trust and love, but not fear or anger.

"A recent example of 'walking my talk' is my move to Alaska. I knew that I was supposed to come here. Since last spring the signs pointed me towards the Last Frontier, although at that time, nothing was ready for my arrival. I didn't know anyone in Alaska; I didn't have a place to stay, and no job was waiting for me. On the top of that, I didn't have much money for a trip from California to Alaska. But I went anyway - on pure trust. I knew that if I came with love and peace, all doors would open for me.

"Money came first. During a night's stay in a small Canadian village, I was asked to do some healing work for the locals. I stayed for two more days and made enough money to finish my trip. When I arrived in Alaska, I performed a small ceremony to pay respect to the spirits of the land, and I asked them to support me. It was then that a place to stay in Anchorage showed up. I was invited to stay with a family of local healers.

"Within a short time, I met a lot of beautiful people, the jewels of a local spiritual community, and made some good friends. For almost a month, I stayed in Anchorage, and then received a message that with the first snow I was supposed to go north. A Chief of Athabascan Indians and his wife opened their house for me, and I moved to Wasilla.

"After just two months after arriving to Alaska, I found myself pretty much settled. When a first income came, a low-cost private place was offered for me to stay. Now in Wasilla, I teach Qi-Gong classes and do healing work. Besides that, I have enough free time to write my stories for my upcoming book."

I didn't want to mislead my friends by saying that I always was on top of all situations. Even though everything from the very beginning of my move unfolded in a magical way, lack of stable income kept shaking my faith and raising many fears. In the time of the darkest and longest winter nights when the energy of loneliness and depression hung over the Alaskan land, I worked hard to bring light to my own darkness and keep away the fears. And very soon I began to receive rewards for my work. The biggest one was a vision of a healing exercise which helped me to conquer my fears. It was revealed to me as "Walking in the Light, One Bright Cell Meditation."

I want to share this exercise with others, because if more and more of us would be able to conquer demons of fear, heavy and depressing vibrations eventually will be replaced by the vibration of joy, happiness and love all around the earth. And because the power of love is the only true power in this Universe, a global healing will eventually take place for the whole planet and for the human race.

Please read: Walking in the Light Meditation