Letter to a Friend

My Dear Friend,

It has been so long since last I've seen you, so I hope this letter finds you well. I also hope that this letter as a beacon will guide you through the stormy vicinity of your life to a peaceful shore where you will find love and learn about your own light. I want you to know that you have the most kind and genuine heart, generous and light spirit. The more time and space that separates us, the easier it is for me to see the light in you as well as more clearly distinguish the faces of your darkness.

You told me once that because of what you experienced the last few years of your troubled marriage, you now have a lot of fears and mistrust about a relationship with a woman. I feel compassion for your suffering and pain; however, I want to remind you that we all are responsible for what we carry inside. As you heard the phrase, pain can be your greatest teacher. So, if we are willing to learn and to grow spiritually, the pain can teach us a lot. At first, though, we have to find courage and strength to forgive. We ourselves are responsible for our own healing and for a release of negativity and old emotional traumas. Only then we will be able to let go of our painful past.

I also want you to know that pain is a garden soil for the darkness which will grow, gain power and take over you if you continue to cater your pain. The darkness will become you and you will become a representative of the darkness. Every time when you find yourself suspicious and untrusting, when you exhibit aggressive or cruel behavior, or when you catch yourself being jealous, angry or rude, think about the darkness that is applauding and gaining strength inside of you.

I want to name some other faces of darkness that might seem familiar to you: judgment and blame, insensitivity to someone's pain and suffering, controlling or bossy behavior, inability to see the light or positive qualities in others, tactlessness in expressing your opinion, hurtful or harmful comments towards somebody's actions. If you especially discover in yourself lack of compassion and inability to forgive and to love, it means that you can't wait any longer. It means that the forces of darkness are strong in you and that you have to begin your battle with darkness right away.

There is something else the dark forces do to us: they lower down vibrations of our energy body. So, as a result, we experience mostly a vibration of our dense physical body. Carnal desires increase and while we indulge ourselves in sexual pleasures, fine food and alcohol, we lose our connection with the Higher Self. Our upper chakras, such as the heart and throat charkas, the third eye and the crown chakra shrink or close up completely. As a result, we lose clarity and intuition, an ability to see guidance, to communicate clearly and to experience the higher vibrations of love. This is how we become suspicious, aggressive and cold-hearted. From then on, fear and only fear will be ruling our lives.

Even though a battle with fears is not an easy one and darkness never gives up easily, I know that it is in your power to overcome both. At first, it might seem to you that you will have to fight with Your Self. But, what will appear later is the realization that you simply have to conquer the invasion of darkness.

I believe in you and your light, and I want you to remember that you are not on your own. You have many friends who love and can support you on your path to freedom from darkness. There is also unconditional love that always shines on us from above. You have just to open your heart to receive this love!

We all have to remember that it is always up to us either to let the darkness run our lives, control our behavior and direct our actions, or, we can chose to live our lives according to the principles of love and light. If we choose to do this work, we must first accept the fact that there are some elements of darkness inside of us. The next step is to recognize our individual darkness and then to look for help.

There are many light workers who have skills and knowledge to guide and support you through your battle with the forces of darkness. Your persistence and determination is the key to your victory. Eventually, the light in you will shine again, your heart will open to love, your vision will clear up and your intuition will come back. You will change. Your eyes will radiate the love of your heart and compassion and wisdom will become your qualities. And when love and only love will rule your life, you will have won the battle with darkness.

My dear, I want you to know that I care about you as I would care about my brother or as I care about my son. In Russian language I would say that you are rodnoi to me, which means that you are a part of me; you are my blood. We, Russians say this not only to members of our family, but also to our very close friends.

At the end of our relationship you've asked me: "What left of us?" I want to answer your question now. I feel that we always will be friends - maybe better friends than anything else. I think about you often as a friend and as a man who I love and respect. Through this time of separation, I began to understand and appreciate you more. I became more compassionate. I have learned my lessons and I hope that you eventually will learn yours.